Yesterday I received the news that I did not answer a question correctly on the exam for my job of over 7 years and consequently will not be able to remain in my job. Am I bitter? Yes, maybe more resigned. Is it a ridiculous hiring practice? Yes, but it won’t be changing anytime soon.
As a single person turning 40 this year it is hard for several reasons. I have no one with whom I can rely on for the bills for awhile. Going back to school is a huge scary idea at my age. I don’t have savings or backup plans. Yes, people always say you need them, but I always felt it was more important to give it to the people who needed it at that moment more than me. I worry about my Mom because I know she will worry about me. Plus, I have to play nice at work and do the job I am “not capable of” until I leave.
This post was titled blessings though, because through finding out what I am going to lose, I gained a lot more. I immediately came home yesterday and started selling my fabrics. The good ones, the big pieces, the kind that people want to buy (me included lol). My friends (who only learnt of it then) immediately rallied around and kept reposting to attract more people to the sale. I have 74 comments telling me that people care. These are people, who for the most part, I have never met in real life. Just having these people there for me, quilters helping quilters, meant a huge amount. I was blessed by one person in particular (M., you know who you are) and through that one gesture I felt surrounded by love and confidence in me. It was truly the most meaningful gift that it could have been, I keep struggling to put into words how it affected me, but I believe you do know M.
I don’t know what is going to happen. My job has been so specialized that I really have no substantive skills outside of it. I can’t think of it right now though… I told myself on the weekend I can start trying to figure things out. In the meantime I am lucky to have a million packages of fabric to send to their lovely new owners.
Aw, Katy, I'm so sorry to hear about the test. Ugh! That just sucks! As much as it doesn't feel like it right now, you do have lots of substantive skills that you can use somewhere else. There will be more competitions. Sending hugs!
ReplyDeleteSurely that is illegal? Perhaps they could send you on a course to re-learn the thing you failed on...?? Heavens - I am thinking of you my sweet friend. xxx P.S. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason. There will be something amazing for you soon I am sure :)
ReplyDeleteOh no! I'm so sorry, hon. :( I've been nose to grindstone and missed all the happenings on IG, and I'm sad I missed that. *HUGS* What a lame turn of events. I know your job has been causing you stress for a while, maybe there will be some door that opens up because of this? You never know! <3 you!
ReplyDeleteOh-ma-garsh! I'm typing through tears. I so sorry (and pissed abt the stoopid practice!) I don't write your days so I don't know why it has to be this way. I am glad you are seeing goods things in a hard spot. Hold your head up and rise above the idiocy of this situation, because you can! You are wonderful and unique and all kinds of special. I could spout cliches that would all apply to character being forged in tough spots, but I will skip most of them and just promise to pray and cheer you on cos I know you will get through. God didn't promise it would be easy, just promised to see us through whatever if we'd just believe he can! One foot in front of the other girlfriend... The next step is the only one you have to take! I am here for you in any way possible. You are greatly loved!!! ❤️❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteOh one thing more. Don't remain bitter... It will eat you. Blindly forgove and let it go cos them you can have peace about it. It's a miracle when this happens but will amaZe you and anyone else watching. This is the stuff of faith and will see you through when you don't think you can see through. Been there, done that... Wanna borrow my t-shirt? 😜 i love you!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that. It's such a de-humanizing process, isn't it. And I use that word very deliberately. Hang in there and take advantage of any job hunting supports they may be offering (and they should be offering some). I'm glad you've found some support in the quilting world. Sending warm thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteWhat horrible news. Do you think the questions and scoring were fair? If not, you might consider grieving. Going back to school at 41 worked for me, although it did involve taking on debt at the time.
ReplyDeleteI hope something wonderful comes out of this.
Awwww dammit...it happened. It really happened. I do hope this is another door opening for you Katy. You're a very smart cookie and I have all the faith in the world that this is an opportunity for you to grow and prosper. Big hugs, cuz I know how much this means. Did Jess keep her job?
ReplyDeleteOh gosh, Katie, I missed your first post about this. So, so sorry to hear that. What a weird situation! It is a scary time. They say when one door closes, another opens, so let's hope that's the case for you. I returned to school at age 38. It sounds young to me at this point!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear that. Here's hoping that you find something soon!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Katy. I hope this leads to a better opportunity. I'm sending hugs your way.
ReplyDeletemuch love to you as you make this transition -- maybe it's time to come to the states? I know a couple of places in NC that would take you and Opie in and they are all right here together.
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